I'm in a stressed- whiny mood- so feel free to not read this...

Ok so It's been kinda busy lately with math classes and latin (in the summer) then tkd starting back up and runners camp just ended... its not too bad- i like doing things and keeping myself occupied.

But oh my gosh right now I really want a break!

I have nooo idea why I am so stressed, I mean of course theres the family stuff, some friends are having problems, but its not really too bad... and holy cow today I kinda snapped...
...at my mom.

Not good :/

Before I was saved I'd have random bursts of anger, I'd kinda walk around my room kicking at my walls and generally being stupid... usually after I had got in trouble or I felt like my mom was purposly annoying me... ha- i was an idiot.

I'm still an idiot I guess, just a more controled one.

Now I'm saved, I no longer see my family as evil beings out to destroy my life, i don't stomp around trying to bring down walls, I usually don't let anyone know if I'm sad or mad... not anymore.

And it's not me, God really does make a difference... he especially changed my temper, But today I through a fit :/

Over nothing...

Ok over abunch of stuff, but at the wrong people.. and right now i feel pretty bad... i mean there was no wall kicking- and i wasn't cursing at anyone but I was basically a jerk to everyone around me at the time...

And then I went for a walk.. a long... longgg walk. I was trying to block everything out, ya know? Trying to kinda forget about problems and such, and then I was trying to block God out... which was a fail. So then I was walking around having a convorsation with him- a really emotional one and I think I convinced half the people on that street I was psychotic cuz I'm walking around with some twisted expression muttering to myself... well not really to myself... but yeah.

I get back home, and my mom is mad... my brother gave me one of his "You just messed up now I'm so disappointing in you." and i was just like- screw you shut up.. not in the mood.

So I ate, worked on mirandas birthday present... did latin and math then went to bed.

Yeah but I couldn't sleep.....
Like I said- long venting post.

Uck- today was crappy... tomorrow will prob be better.... that is if I can get some sleep :/
Goodnight