Summers almost here :O

I think every single one of my classes are ending in at least 2 weeks.... wow.

I'm definitely ready for summer break but I like seeing everyone at my classes... and summer is always boring by the end of the break. This school year went really fast though- it was kinda nice :)
Now I'm trying to end with good grades since I usually get lazy towards the end of the year- im trying to get at least a B+ on all my subjects- except for math- I have no idea what my scores going to be for that :/

Anyways- after co op lindsay came over- which was sooo much fun. I don't hang out with lindsay enough... my dad was tired so she couldnt spend the night but it was still fun.

Uhh- then after she left my mom and sister decided to go rent some movies from red box. We got the brides maids (something like that) it was alright... funny at some parts I guess. Half the movie is them being jerks to each other which got boring- and I thought the end was kinda dumb- but it was still alright. :)

Then they started watching one of their cop shows (haha) so I went to my room... tried to finish breaking dawn. Fail. Haha- I got through a couple chapters then lost interest again.
Uhhh- I realized how beat up my hands and feet looked (testing i guess?) So I painted them and made them pretty... took me forever... haha.

Yeah and thats pretty much my day....yup.

Part two....

Not as bad as I thought. :)

First we started with bo staff- and I honestly never know what I'm doing when it comes to bo staff... I always feel bad for the people that teach me because it has to be frustrating.
Anyways- I'm seriously glad that Jacob decided to test this time cuz if he didn't I definitely would have failed. (not that i didn't.... but it would have been definite) It's not cuz I don't know it, I just don't know what everythings called so usually as soon as I see the first move I know what I'm supposed to do...

Then it was sparring....
oh. my. gosh.

That was crazy... there were five rounds, and three of them I sparred one person, the fourth round I spared two people and the fifth I sparred three people. Ughh- I was trying to pace myself so I didn't do lots on the first three round... I know realize that was basically the stupidest logic in the world...

The one on ones were the easiest and the ones I should've been... idk... impressivish on? Because by the time I got to the fourth round I was really tired and on the fifth round I really thought I was gonna faint.

It's kinda pathetic, we have it on tape. I'm just randomly throwing my leg up in the general direction of someone somewhere and their all beating on me... and then catching me from falling over... and then beating on me again xD
I fall a lot in sparring....
Haha there's this one time where I'm about to fall over- I was seriously dizzy then- and nathans like- it's ok, keep going, keep going, and he's balancing me... so I tried to kick him??

It's funny cuz it felt like I was going crazy at the time and throwing moves constantly, but on the video I'm basically taking everything... :/

I kinda wish I could do this whole testing over... I feel like I've messed up on everything in one way or another. I know if I did it again I could get a better score... but right now I really don't care if its the absolute minimum score possible... I just want my black belt.

Oh, and there was board breaks too. Those were fine, they were fun actually. :)
The one thing I was really worried about was the sidekick on two boards... and that was incredibly easy. The butterfly was also really easy- and probably my favorite. Which is funny cuz I hated it up till today.

Umm everything else was pretty easy.... I messed up on hammerfist the first try. Idk what I did, I think maybe I came down to close to the edge...? Possibly? The second time I broke it, but more with my arm. I got an impressive looking scratch on my hand now, and it was swelling for awhile xD
It didn't hurt though.

So yeah... testing is over... and I messed up really bad on it... but we'll see...
This is gonna be a really long weekend- lol.

... because sleeping is dumb

Ughhh- i wish tomorrow was thursday... i really just want to get testing over with. Plus I'm hoping if I fail she wont make me wait all weekend to find out... my mom said she would probably let someone know so that I didn't freak out as soon as I got graded at the award ceromony.

Pshh... and I'm gonna be getting a lower score on writing cuz I didn't do the work :/

Yeah- i usually procrastanate then do it the night before/day of- for writing anyways. Mainly cuz writing is sooo easy to me, especially creative writing, holy cow I love that stuff :D And in mrs. henrys writing class all I'm doing is taking notes... which is the type of stuff you can do while your watching tv and its really easy. I also like the process of research papers xD cuz when you finish one its kinda like finishing a long project, and when you turn it in everything looks all neat and pretty... lol

Im a dork when it comes to writing B)

Gosh- Im sooo tired right now but i can't sleep... grrr. Im also starving, but for some reason its really bad to go downstairs and eat when its past ur bedtime... our house rules are strange. It's always so wierd to be at a friends house and when your thirsty not have to worry about sneaking down there cuz their parents would be mad if they caught you with a cup of water.

Lord forbid you get thirsty at night...


Sorry- im a lil grumpy. haha. But my parents are wonderful, and dying of thirst is a small price to pay to satisfy them with my obedience. (watch this be the one post my mother doesnt read)

Mkay, well I'm gonna try to sleep now... ughh waking up at 7 :/

I really don't know how I'm gonna survive at public school when I'm gonna have to wake up at 6- 6:30 every day.
haha wont that be fun

Yeah- i knew it...

I'm gonna fail.

Seriously- this testing was the WORST! I felt like I was messing up on everything :/ My mom video taped it, and it didn't seem as bad on camera but I thought i was gonna cry when I was up there. The three big things I messed up on was green belt form (cuz I was going the wrong direction,) and then not knowing what moves to yell on for brown and red. *facepalm*

Really?

I studied those the whole time everyone else was doing there form, and I forget them as soon as I get up there??? I'm a stupid head. Oh and my stances have gotten really pathetic, did I get taller? I know they used to be deeper and I didn't have to think about it then...

Everyone else did really good though, bravo haha.

Because of my 15 minute blankingness, we still have board breaks, bo staff, sparring, verses, and terminology for thursday... Which is alright, I can use the practice- but I dont think Mrs. Stancil was very impressed...

On the bright side my made up self defense went alright, considering I made it up last night/this morning- and I didn't get very tired (standing around thinking of the moves you yell on gave everyone a break haha)

So maybe if I do really really really good on everything else- I'll pass... but even my own mother doesn't think so (lol) so I wont hold my breath. *sigh* looks like I'm getting my black belt with miranda and lindsay after all :)

Black Belt testing stress :/

Happy Mothers Day!

Ughh- black belt testing is on Tuesday and there's so much I wish I knew better! Basically I'm not ready (enough) for everything... except techniques which no one really worries about...

Where did all the time go? I've had my red tip for 6 months and yet still learned everything the 2 weeks before testing. I'm kinda annoyed at the timing, I got my red tip, then it was the tournament, then it was meet in the street. In between practicing for all of that I would've had the time to learn some of my red tip stuff- but it just didn't happen.

I still don't really know the Bo staff forms very well- but Miranda and Jeremy came over and helped a lot!!! We made up my demo... which I hope everyone will still remember come Tuesday. Anyways- Bo staff is usually the quickest/easiest thing since its not as- idk stressful...?

Then I have forms, which I was fine with until Thursday when Nathan was helping and we were doing white belt then he was like "that was good, now do it like a black belt."
what?
So then I did it again, and again, and now I'm freaking out that all of my forms aren't good enough for black belt. Everyone who has tested before me are all crazy good so how close do I have to get?

Idk why I'm suddenly freaking out over everything, cuz black belt never seemed really hard before (aside from sparring) Moderately hard- yes, nearly impossible- nooo.

Then theres sparring- ahhhh! I'm just planning on keeping myself from getting beat up.... :/

O and verses xD Every single time I always forget about verses till the day before. Well somehow this semester I wound up with around 15 new ones that I didn't recognize. Plus theres the foggy ones from the recent testing...
My mom was helping me with them and when she got to the last ones I didn't know... she was not impressed. She was getting more and more mad till finally she was like "You're gonna fail."

I took that wayyyyy to literally and started freaking out... (haha "started") Failing wouldn't be too bad... because then I wait, train, and test again with Savannah or Miranda... which is what I wanted to do in the first place. I guess I've hit my time limit though cuz Mrs. Stancil really wants me to test now.

I know after belt testing this post is gonna seem so dramatic xD